Jaxton

Oh Jax. I dont know that I even have words. Your mommy and daddy went through so much to bring you into our world. You came a little early and were a fighter even at that moment. Mommy wanted you so badly she risked it all. Nursing school and even life. You little man are worth every effort she put into you. The youngest of my crew and mommy's last. Set the world on fire like I know you will. I love you with everything I am. It's a bitter sweet moment to think that this very well could be my last grandchild. The close the line of legacy. I am in awe of this little guy. He looks exactly like Tristan. It is amazing how much. It's just like I am watching my first grandchild all over. But this is my last. Talk about mirror image. It is strange to say the least. Watching your kids bring kids into this world and watching\ it all spin around you. Oh the circle of life. I just thank God every day about 1000 times for all the wonderful blessings and giving me the opportunity to be here and see them.

Emma

Emma oh my spunky curly haired whirl wind. You came into our lives a little easier than your big sister but a little more stubborn. The doctor had to pull you out during the csection which was not very fun for mommy. But better than the awful issues mommy has had in the past. You are the 1 grandchild who doesnt miss a beat and lets us all know it. You are strong willed and full of compassion. Your empathy for others at your age astounds me. I love you with everything I am. Little did we know that you would be mommy's last baby. I think she ended with a grand finale. Life has a funny way about it. But in the end God has that plan. We do not know that plan. We do not like that plan sometimes. But in the end it always works out for the best.

Madelyn

Oh my Madelyn. You came into this world like a breeze on a world full of choas. Nice and easy without the issues of your brothers. Unfortunately I missed out on the first few years of your life. I watched you grow from afar. This beautiful spunky sparkle of a little girl who is going to be extremely strong. I love to hear you say "grama I love you". The look on your face when you are dumbfounded. You baby girl give me strength when my thoughts turn to you. I love you with everything I am. I see you in the thoughts and in my prayers. You have a strength that just shines baby girl. You have to to handle those brothers of yours. I can tell already you are going to achieve everything you set out to. You have the will drive and determination of a thousand warriors already. I am amazed by my granddaughters. But yet they do come from a long line of strong women.

It has been awhile

I did 'nt realize how long it has been since I've written in this blog. A ton has happened since.
Unfortunately Dave and I split after 9 years, We just simply gave up. Which is kind of strange for me. Considering I just simply don't usually give up. I think I just needed to be tired in one aspect of my life.
I have had 3 beautiful additions to my grandchildren. They make my life complete.  7 now. 7 beautiful babies. They are the reason I still function. They give me reason to go on. My legacy.
I am still trying to answer the question : Does my MS define me? I do not know. Maybe I never will.

Time to take a breath

I know I have said this before. We have been so busy I have not had the time to keep up on this blog. There are never enough hours in the day. Especially when you chase 2 little ones around all day.

We have had both sorrow and joy in these last few months. We lost our beloved Shiloh just a few days after Christmas. Some people do not realize how serious it is for your dog to eat chocolate. Depending on the chocolate and caffeine combination it can and will be deadly. I make a cookie bar every year for Christmas. The topping is a half of a bag of chocolate chips. Shiloh was 5 and for the last 5 years has never even attempted to get into the food on the tables or countertops. We left Christmas day to go to Dave's families house. When we got back she had gotten the cookie bars off the table and had some how gotten them open. We still do not know how she managed to unsnap the lid. A few days later we lost her to chocolate poisoning. Please everyone take this seriously. A dog at 30 pounds 3 oz of chocolate chips can be deadly. Combined with 16 mg of caffeine and it is deadly.

The joy we have had is the Grandkids. They are growing and getting so big. Every day they are learning something new. Sophie and Keegan started pre school this year. It was such a big step for Keegan. He actually started on time. And with every thing that he has, he should by all rights be far behind where a normal child his age is supposed to be. Tristan started first grade. Poor Bryson still has to stay home with Grama. But he will start pre school next year.

I have finished several furniture projects. We found a fabulous dining room set at the ReStore. I absolutely love that place.